Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Loaded Tongue

Sharp & fast
Verbal warfare spewed to last
To harm
To hurt
To break
The concern for me you once showed
Pseudo
Fake
Phony love
Occupied only to take
My time
My energy
Draining me of my spark
As I sit lonely crying in the dark
Asking all the "Who, What, When, Where's and Why's"
To everyone
And yet no one at all
Once on top
I slowly fall
To my figurative death
As I play over in my mind
The decisions I made
I rewind
I skip over the minimal good to those that remind
Remind me of why I am in this place
This space
My mind no longer will erase
The disgrace I feel as I
Replay your words
Boisterous and deadly
The loaded tongue of yours cocks back shooting actions that are
Just as powerful
Displaying your lack of integrity
And loyalty
To me and only me
Aren't I privileged to be in the presence of you
'Thoo'
You spit those words onto my face
Your saliva rolls down my eyelashes
My nose
Onto my mouth
Which attacks with a fierce comeback
But it's not enough
One after another you pound and pound
It's a sport you have played for years
Yet the field has changed
Or has it?
The evil lurking in you remains the same
Can't take the snake out of the grass
Or the devil out from Hell
I now know this all too well
And with your tongue well loaded
Waiting to strike again
I keep silent
Yet attack with my pen

Written by Kesh
-June 4, 2013

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Sunday, June 2, 2013

Diary of an Unhappily Married Woman

Here are the inner thoughts of an unhappily married woman. After years of enduring abuse, she quietly sits down with herself, and reflects on the troubles in her life. A culmination of immature bull has led up to the writings from the Diary of an Unhappily Married Woman.
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I stress the bills while you watch tv because
YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME
Laughing, "Hee Hee"
Out of mom's
It was all a G because
YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME
I'm a "bitch"
"Selfish"
Yet you benefited more than WE because
YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME
Thought you were fly
Willie style
On the sly
Tell me why?
Because
YOU DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME

So spare me your claim to fame
While you maintain
All along
Your feelings remained
While you left me
And your blood
Darkness and rain
Stayed physically but mentally
You brought the pain
It's all the same

Too chicken shit to make it legal
And now I see though
Last name's the same
But you ride single
No more love
And for me
No more tingles
Like it was back in the day
Horseplay filled days
Better yet
Foreplay
When I was your girl
Your fiancee
Present day's in disarray
My current goal
To be a divorcee
Whoa!
That shit cray

So I breathe...

And I pause...

My bed is made
I'm in my drawers
Can't get up
It's not your fault
I tell myself
But my 'me'
Says it's on me
No gun to my head
Just verbal brutality spewed from he
Walking blindly through it all
I should of known better
Faith in man is like reading a 4-page letter
Grim fairy tale
I saw the signs
A smarter woman would have bailed
But I gave it my all
Now I'm left with the tail
From an ass...

"Hee Hee"
No!
"Hee Haw"
Such a snake in the grass
Focused on my sanity
As my mind tries to last
I know what he deserves
But it's not my justice to pass

But until then, I wait patiently

And when it comes...
Slap me TWICE if I'm not done!

-Written by Kesh
June 2, 2013

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